01 April 2010
Goodbye, and Hello! =)
Hatamachi （ 波田町）is the pretty town we're residing in.
Yesterday, it stepped down with a 136 years of history, when merged with the preceding city of Nagano, Matsumoto ( 松本 ).
Now this actually adds to the many residential merits we're enjoying. Like an upgrade of an already complete package.
Whenever people congratulate us on the reward of our 'fine foresight', I muse with a bitter-sweet recollection of what led us to where we are now. Really. It's not even half like what they have assumed.
In fact, things were looking desperate. My parents-in-law were pestering for our return, while Bear defended his idea of a nuclear family. It was a reckless investment when we decided to acquire another piece of land - a hat too big. We pulled out from the potential black hole anyway, not because we were smart, but Bear fell sick... I was sicker, mentally I mean, or in every other means. I was sick with the forever ambiguous health reports that Bear returned with, and that he wasn't sick enough to refrain from travelling. I was sick of putting up with inconsiderate people who had to show up at such troubling period. Sick of having to attend to matters that didn't matter. Everything was urgent, only my needs weren't. Besides God, I was tooooo tired to relate to anybody. Was Jesus listening?.. that I wasn't sure too.
But He was there before things crumbled, or before my faith fell apart. ' Don't just speak to me, show me! ' I demanded... And God showed Himself larger than everything put together. Bear got healed miraculously, ( was the thing there in the first place anyway? ). We sorted lots of knotty stuff, and learnt lessons along the way. Domains beyond us simply worked out on their own. We didn't wrestle, it was more like we were utterly powerless to do so. Things, just happened God's way.
3 years of stumbling along the road, not some glorious business-like strategies they thought we've devised. Some like to say that we're lucky, I'd like to think that God just has this thing for the meek and simple. We're blessed.
Goodbye to what's painful but necessary, and hello to new grace. =)
Goodbye Hatamachi. Hello Matsumoto!