06 October 2009
Happy Birthday =)
This time of the year, I ought to be back in Singapore to celebrate Dad's birthday, but I'm not.
Don't ask, it wrenches me more.
I've always wanted a home 'easy' to return to. I guess nothing changes much after I've married distance away. But I'm ok...
Sometimes, I sigh at the fact that I'm born an Asian, correction; born in Asia. Worse, at an era neither here nor there, when kids are given in to western education by folks who are deeply rooted in their ethnic beliefs and values. We can hug or kiss a friend, but we can't do the same to dad and mom. People in my parents' generation, they don't embrace, kiss, say 'I love you', and even tears are taboos as they are considered inauspicious. Weird huh? If anyone out there relates to me.
Having mentioned my parents' reservation on expressing themselves, I've never felt an ounce less of what's called 'fatherly love' . In dad's presence, there is protection, I'll find understanding, and acceptance. I never had to be a 'race-horse' that outdo others or perform great to earn his smile, he delights at my every best. Many times when I look back, I couldn't have made it; without him. He's the kind of dad who'll make you think, an extra mile is worth walking, growth is beautiful, and agony is part of what makes life sweet. Even when the whole world turns its back on me, dad sees me through. He is the biggest cushion I fall back on when things fall apart, and I'd like to cuddle when I'm happy. But of course, I didn't. I haven't.
One of the most divine that has happened to me, I'm born dad's baby. =)
To the greatest Pa in the world, and though you may not know that your girl owns one of those what people call a 'blog' :
Happy Birthday, and I love you.
Star, Daddy's girl.