It's been 5 days since I've returned from the big fat Chinese New Year celebration at Singapore. No matter how the festive mood fades away from the pressure-packed metropolitan island, every Chinese wants a chip of the celebration-meant-to-be, especially me.
I surrendered my voice for goodies I would have died for - Pineapple tarts, bakwa, durian, reckless indulgence I couldn't wait... at least I was capable of screaming my lungs out at gatherings with dear friends and relatives, they incredibly thoughtful folks. Oh yes, everybody accomodated to me 24/7, for I'm the one 'exiled' to Japan, HAHAHA... you can imagine the thankfulness welling inside.
Then again, days would have been nicer if I could carry the Bear in my pocket, I missed my partner every other heartbeat. For the first time, Bear didn't show up at the CNY fun, so things felt a little different. Every morning, I wasn't instantly sure where I woke up to, or where I wanted to be... I guess it's in every foreign bride? No matter where I am, I'm constantly missing something or someone. Void stalks me.
Someone once told me that you have to choose.
What you win or lose, you can't have everything... ~ Happy, Leona Lewis
So it is with the best of both worlds.
Bear and the relevant, or what's in Singapore that bears heavy significance. It's a completion I'll never know here nor there.
But it's not the end of the world, especially now that the world is suffering with Haiti and Chile. At times like this, I'm cross at myself for getting carried away in silly indulgence. As long as my loved ones are safe and doing fine, nothing really matters anymore. Yeah... it's time I grow.
Maybe, I am having the best of both worlds like the back and fore of my hand, can't ask for more. =)
For now, I'll just give thanks for where I am, do my private lion dance and be happy. Look who threw me a welcome home party!
Credit goes to Bear for taking care of them during my absence. Ahh... I'm so looking forward to Spring!