.What's in store for a God-Blessed Box

A better friend

2012-01-29T22:31:00.007+09:00

With much happening of late, it makes me wishing from inside that I have been a better friend. A friend who sends that promised mail, checks up the troubled pal, says the needful prayer.

It's not about being popular or building a presence. Something simple as being there for someone, like many others who have stood by me even before I asked them to.

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My blogger friend lost her darling Airedale Maggie today. It feels like I've lost a friend too. I haven't been able to check up on them lately, so the sad news just hit me somewhat hard and sudden.

I hope I do not miss caring for another friend again. For a change I hope I'll grow to be a better giver than just a receiver.

Thank you for sharing the marvel of your life there Maggie, you'll be missed. My deepest thoughts with you Sue.

Where are you?

2012-01-14T21:49:00.010+09:00

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I don't know how time passes so quickly ever since my return from Singapore...

I'm pretty pleased with how I'm clearing stuffs even before my wrist is healed to a comfortable stage. Sadly, it's a reality too that there are aspects left to neglect.

Like the blog... You know, the cub is the one and only I may ever have my lifetime. So for every milestone reached or wonder he showed me, I've made mental notes to post them but failed to do so.

I've received presents and cards sent by kind folks all the way from Singapore, England, Taiwan and Australia, but I haven't take time to thank one by one though I wish I've done so. Why haven't I? Really!!!

Maybe I need an hour, just an hour that allows me to catch some sleep, finish the chores, catch up with friends, clear my mailbox. But where do I find that hour? I'm interupted 3 times when writting this.

If money can't buy me time, fine. How about some human-use battery? The kind that makes one go on and on and on like the Energiser Bunny.

Something very undesirable happened... I think I may have lost one, or even more miserably; two long time friends... Friends for almost 20 years. Just like that. With a snap of the finger. Boom! She's gone.

I swear I do not know the reason behind her vanishing without a word, and for the first few hours I was worried if something has happened to her. But you know, a cold shoulder isn't too hard to detect, the chill reaches me despite the distance.

It's not like we had a fight or anything close, our last words were we're dying to meet each other. It's not like someone bitched behind me and things got marred. It's not about a broken promise, a lie, or betrayal. A little voice tells me that I'll never know the reason my lifetime.

But I respect her decision to throw our 20 years away though it hurts with every heartbeat. I admit that I couldn't even make time to poke her. Maybe she felt neglected. Maybe...

Where you are, A? Give me a word, I just want to know that you're alright, nothing else matters. I won't even ask why. :(

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I'd like to leave a word for all blogger friends who are staying around with your encouragement. Things are inevitably tight for an imperfect person who's trying to put things right... You know I'll come back to you.

Happy 2012

2012-01-02T11:33:00.007+09:00

This year, I'm wishing for peace around the world, and may God's abundant grace overflows. May that the world be a better place to live in, a little voice reminds me of my daily responsiblities and shoulds. So I'm starting with the man in the mirror, cos I have a little one mirroring me now.

The blog is 4 :) And through it I've befriended some sweetest personalities whom I count as my blessings. All you wonderful people who have cared for us in 2011, thank you so much!

May 2012 be an extremely great year for everybody!

Home for Christmas

2011-12-24T21:20:00.010+09:00

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Greetings! From Japan.

We actually flew back home a week ago, for reasons better forgotten, but our bags packed with toys and hearts full of joy. We're reunited with papa for this very special year end, our first Christmas, and first New Year together.

So all is good, and God is good for bringing us back so that we could celebrate the little guy who is another 6 months to a year old!

The cub was the apple of so many eyes then... my family, friends and even strangers. I was a proud mama throughout my stay in Singapore, my trophy, medal and prize lie in him. I've probably finally understood why people love to have kids?

At 5 months, the playful one was rolling over like a pro. I knew it, he looooves attention and is a big show off. He teased my family so much that everybody hurried home to catch their superstar. My brother must forgive me for posting this, know how much the cub liked it high on his uncle's shoulders. They are just too cute together!

I was most touched when my outrageously playful one was good throughout both flights, and even having passengers who couldn't resist him coming over to play. My eyes warmed when an Irish old lady praised and blessed him, these very warm-hearted people were too kind to an almost crippled mom struggling with a infant on the 7 hours flight.

I know you feel me when I say I'm thanking God for keeping the good spirits in my boy throughout those hours. :)

Someone may be right about me thinking too much for my little one is constantly in a good mood. True, but Mr. Sunshine has his Achilles' heel too. See what I mean.

And he means it.

Now into 6 months, I think I'm going grey if he's not going to love his semi-solids soon. HE~LP!!

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It's Christmas tomorrow, the birthday of our Savior, who came just as helpless as any babe in the world. As I carressed my little one and ponder upon the many miracles and blessings in my life... who am I, to have Him come and give... I can't really put into words, but the story of Nativity just touches me anew, again.

Blessed Christmas everyone, wherever you are, know that His blessings have never left you. May the beautiful spirit of Christmas fills your heart and home.

How many days...

2011-12-14T23:11:00.007+09:00

To Christmas did you say?? I've been so dazed with so much late happenings that I'm missing all the fun of my favorite day.

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A surgery is carried out successfully on my left wrist 4 weeks ago, and now the fella has forgotten how to rotate, bend or twist freely. It is recovering little by little, but surely, and a complete healing is just a matter of time. It's been so long that I'm able to carry my baby with ease again. :)

We're extending our stay in Singapore until February of the brand new year. I do have some concerns though cos my family members simply dote on my little one too much, I can't imagine returning Japan with a spoilt brat. :(

I know, I know. They can't help themselves. Even strangers love him.

Well, I guess it'll be good to siam ( Singapore slang ; avoid ) winter for a wee bit.

I'm not forgetting everyone who have cared about my condition. All the concern, emails, and follow-ups, thank you so much! Things were hard for quite a while, but kind people like you have made days bearable.

Going home

2011-11-02T21:40:00.007+09:00

In another 3 days, I'll be travelling with my 4 months old on a 7 hour flight home.

It isn't an easy decision. I worry about how the cub will cope with his first flight in his tender months, I guess it's why I'm not too thrilled about the trip this time.

The medical sectors in Japan aren't helping me, so I'm making a hopeful trip back for surgery on my wrists which are about to give way anytime soon. This Tendonitis has been tormenting me for years and been most unbearable the past months. I've been clenching my teeth so hard that I may lose them soon.

Looking back I couldn't have survived the past months with 2 bad wrists and an active baby without a new supply of grace granted to me day by day. Sniff...

Now I just need to pull through the flight, hoping that my fella stays his sweet self. After the surgery, I may not be able to use the keyboard for quite a while so catch up later everyone! Meanwhile, stay good and blessed.

At 4 months

2011-10-29T21:08:00.007+09:00

4 months have passed and we're still calling our little thing 'Breadcrumbs'. We use this cute icon conveniently whenever we text about the cub.

The 7300 grams of Breadcrumbs flips over with little help, and lunges himself forward as if he's ready to crawl.

His baby vowels have increased so much and it's really hilarious when he babbles non stop. He is starting to laugh and giggle aloud.

He has the most generous smiles and very friendly to strangers too.

I love it most when he looks at me affectionately and wraps his little fingers around mine.

Of course there are hair pulling moments like how he pulls his own hair and everybody elses, but he quickly makes up with his cute self.

At the mention of hair, I'm getting really scared as I'm shedding like autumn. Also, losing weight at an exponential rate too.. I didn't gain too much pregnancy weight to begin with due to the morning sickness slash, so it's all showing on my hollow cheeks and I'm looking as if I'm having morning sickness all over again.

It's a mixture of feelings whenever I bring the baby to the mirror, there he is all smooth and soft while I've never looked more haggard and tired.

It sounds great to look like a radiant mom holding my baby, but really I won't dwell too much on what's beyond my control. I'll be really happy though if I can just spend this winter cold-free.

The Anniversary

2011-10-24T22:05:00.009+09:00

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Today is when we celebrate our wedding held in Japan 7 years ago.

I wrote about the same day last year, and named the post 'The Anniversary'.

What I didn't tell in the post back then, I was 5 days late by the anniversary day.

I didn't want to think too much about it for afterall it was the first time we tried. To be sure, I got my kit that morning and that's how all that cramping, headache and bloating explained.

I remember my feelings back then with so much detail that my eyes are warm with the same happy tears right now. :)

And so I had a surprise ready for Bear at our anniversary dinner! I was impatient throughout the slow meal as I couldn't wait for dessert, that's when I would pass him the kit ~ Happy Anniversary honey, I have a present for you. ;)

’本当に？’ he said. Yes honey, I know it all seems very orchestrated but yes, you are becoming a daddy soon!

But I remember telling him too that we may be rejoicing too soon as my age is a factor, and my health hasn't been too good since I've started living in Japan.

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This year, there are 3 of us at the dining table. Bear and I had our favorite pizza, the little one watched on curiously and was foaming like a crab. It's ok we didn't make it to any place fascinating. Happiness has never been nearer next to the one you love. :)

Thank you God, for every single blessing.

Mothers

2011-10-22T23:37:00.011+09:00

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My sweetest little thing has turned 4 months today. :)

Every morning, I will breathe from behind his ear deeply, and hoping that I'll smell like him. I tap happiness from my darling my waking hours, it's soley him I see in our photos. There's a new self worth when I know how much my voice can calm my angel. The inner child in me holds his hand, we'll go to moon and return with a star together. I've never known a bigger motivation, hope and purpose.

Did I mention I'm a mom of 4 months already? I'm a newborn, a born again, a new being called 'mom'? Poke me, I'll ooze love.

But soon after I've typed all these from top of the world, I'm feeling everything else a mom doesn't want to know.

Especially after reading Fiesty Princess Charmaine.

The Dragon Mom.

Poor Yue Yue.

The missing 2 year old girl in Japan.

It's scary. You thought you're now an invincible new creation, but you're so wrong. A mom doesn't run the world for her own, but for the little ones she gives life to whose destinies she has no control over. She protects, defends, prays and hopes to her last breath.

Moms. You may not know them, but you connect with them all across the world. You'll shed tears for a stranger mom, and get on your knees for a suffering one. You even feel for your worst enemy, and bless her children. And humble yourself before God with hope that you'll never be tested.

It's all too bold for the gentler gender. And because I'm convinced not every woman has motherly instincts, I've been avoiding the issue my married years.

But now, let me embrace this complicated, delicate, vulnerable role. No regrets.

God, please bless the mothers and their children.

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Grin

2011-10-19T12:53:00.008+09:00

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Day 2 without Bear's paws. My shoulder and neck twisted as they go cahoots with the bad wrists.

Worry not. Every ballet-trained knows how to deal with twists. Never freeze yourself into a statue, that's making things worse. Rotate or move the affected part very slowly in all possible directions, it'll be painful but the stressed muscles will loosen up. Massages help too.

I'm cool, really! Catch this!

Me : I love you.

Baby : Smile.

Me : My 心肝宝貝 ( precious ).

Baby : SMILE.

Me : What's for dinner ... hmm. Can I pop one of your thighs into the oven tonight?

Baby : Grin.

Me : You like it with spice and herbs, or terriyaki style?

Baby : Big grin and started kicking excitedly.

I swooped my darling up, and gave the biggest tightest hug that could restore him back into my belly if we're made of jellies. Pain? What pain? He's my healer, my sweetener, the reason I carry on.

I'm blessed.

10 days

2011-10-18T09:50:00.013+09:00

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LOOK! He's using both hands!

Silly Bear almost jumped over the sofa to grab the camera, just because the cub held the zebra's tail in his right fist.

The cub has been doing his stuff with both hands since 1st week of 3 months Darling. I do pity the busy dad who has been missing the cub's milestones.

Lucky him, he had some 10 days break to catch up with us, but not so lucky anymore when he had to lend his hands on home chores. Also, driving places to seek second opinion on my bad wrists.

We did some shopping, purchased new bulbs for the garden, chillax at cafes and eateries wee bit... Oh yes, and the cub's passport applied.

Today onwards, I'm back to my own with my chap. Sitting here recalling the past 10 days short of blog-worth...

But it was nice just by being together.

For all we know

2011-10-15T20:54:00.010+09:00

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Over the past months some of my friends were lost and found thanks to FB.

I'm especially moved when 'reunited' with bad boy A. The heavy smoker with his playboy magazines who even bullied me a little, he's a born again now. An occupational therapist who helps the visually challenged, an image distant from his past.

And my secondary school friends who shared those bitter-sweet-bitter teenage years, we weren't kids raised in homes that taught stars could be reached. Disillusioned, none of us could see where we would be in 10 years. I guess most of us wished for lots and lots of luck when we graduated.

When 20 years have passed,

*Poor K who never seemed to do anything right, is now an associate director at a property firm.

*Shortskirt X travels the globe as an executive secretary.

*Gangsta A runs his own business with close connections at Dubai.

*Nerdy N a systems analyst.

*Shorty B makes his name in dance sports and belongs to a dance company.

*XY, E and F are raising 4, 5 and 6 children respectively.

*Soft V teaches at our very school.

Most had a taste of setbacks, but look how far they've come. I can't help feeling happy for everyone of them.

Bear let me down when my pot of greenie perished in summer. He thought I was trying to protest by letting it sit there, truth is I was hoping for a miracle though it seriously looked dying.

Then in the middle of all busyness, I forgot about why I didn't do away with it.

Until 2 months later, its promising green reminds me again of what I was waiting for.

And I'm reminded too, that even though sometimes things just never went my way, life just gets better.

It's a sweeter tomorrow. For all we know. :)

百日祝い

2011-10-09T21:53:00.016+09:00

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On 30th September, it was when the cub turned a 100 days old and we held the お食い初め ( Okuizome ) for him.　

Lifted from the internet : The Okuizome is performed in hopes that the child would never have to worry about food. Although this may differ slightly by region, the Okuizome usually occurs 100 days after birth when the child starts to eat baby food. Some regions may do this on the 110th ~ 120th day. The baby only pretends to eat the food in this ceremony.

Bear got the cub his very own set of cutlery especially for the ceremony. It's surely way practical than the traditional lacquered ware as the latter isn't designed for durability.

Most of the dishes laid on the table signify a blessing for the child. I don't remember having worked so hard in the kitchen since his arrival, but I'll go miles if it's for my precious cos He. Is. Special! :D

Ok, I cheated on this Bream though as we had it ordered. :P

And I didn't make the red bean rice, the sushi, and the tart too. Grin.

Umm, you see... my wrists really hurt, and they still are. :/

But I can't explain myself anymore when I forgot about the stone that means strong teeth for the boy! In desperation, I brought out the stone his dad used for proposal.

Ok darling, mama promises to try harder for the next big thing. I'm just so glad that life offers so many celebrations for second chances. ;)

Grab your covers

2011-10-02T22:06:00.004+09:00

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It's getting cold. Brr...

BCG

2011-09-29T20:16:00.007+09:00

His first jab today, the BCG, but it was mommy who had a nervous spell for the past week.

Is he going to lose apetite after that? Is it alright to bathe him later? Is it going to be painful? Is he going to cry and wriggle vigorously and hurt my wrists and will I lose my grip and AHH~~~

Fortunately, papa Bear came along too.

And my worries were unfounded. He let out a small shriek, there were tears in his eyes, but he suppressed the rest. It was funny to see a baby holding back so hard like that, a little too hard to watch without laughing. He was all cool again when I greeted him 'Hey Sexy' ( he had his left arm exposed ). He liked it. :P

We're first time parents struggling to settle several tasks in a day! So the cub tagged along to the mall, that was when 2 strangers came over to tell me how adorable my boy is. The Japs aren't very outspoken people you know, I'm flattered, extolled; overwhelmed. Do you know the fella just had his jab? Of course, I didn't tell them that.

I'm so proud of him! Sniffs. There'll be many firsts to take on from now, but if it's him I'm working with, I think we'll do fine. :)

Oh yes, papa Bear got the cub a set of exclusive cutlery. Guess what we are up to with it.

Nah, it isn't the gift he's excited about. It's the laundry dangling above him.

Silly boy.

At 3 months

2011-09-28T16:34:00.017+09:00

Here's giving Summer 2011 a closure for it has been the most eventful since we've got married. It's a wonder how a tiny person is capable of reforming our world completely. We're banished to a phase where romance is extinguished, but it's alright. Baby Bear worths it.

The little thing has turned 3 months on the 22nd. Every single day, he reminds me that he is everything I've wished for! :D

On the 22nd, he joined us at the dining table in his high chair for the first time.

I carry over 6600 grams of him at the present. My wrists really really hurt.

He loves one of mommy's favourite song 'Close to you' by the Carpenters. And smiles wryly when I sing him 甜蜜蜜.

He sucks one mitten delightfully while stroking his head with the other hand, then he would let them switch job. As for why mittens at 3 months, the silly fella keeps pulling out his hair. :(

See that fist? You bet there are several strands within.

He is starting to recline like the Sphinx.

We have conquered the outdoor, YAYS! Third time works like a charm and it's a happy baby we pop into the stroller now.

As for the one on laundry, you already knew. :)

What you didn't know is it's been a fairly turbulent period counting down to his 3rd month.

I had to force the bottle on him with pumped milk as I had trouble with a nipple.

My left wrist is so swollen and painful that I can't even open a jar now. Tendonitis sucks.

I have the cub secured all the time for safety only to realise that being overly protective is only detering him from gaining motor skills. And just when I was assuming that we aren't running into trouble very soon, I froze at a LOUD THUD and my heart shattered to pieces when I realised my baby has fallen from the sofa!

His cries pierced me through and through... This moron promised never to leave him at risk again. :(

Fortunately, he was back to his merry self very soon, but recalling this incident still gives me cramps all over.

The foremost thing now is to get my wrists fixed real soon for my darling loves my arms around him! Also, may his 4th month be kind despite challenges like the cold dry climate, and painful needles for the poor little guy. He's receiving his first tomorrow! YIKES!

I'm sorry if you're sick of stories about the cub already. He's everything I eat, sleep, breathe and bleed now. :P

Mirror mirror on the wall

2011-09-17T20:58:00.014+09:00

The baby is asleep, so I'm stealing time to blog.

Seriously, if I could, I want to blog about him every single day. But really, I would rather put away fun stuff to be with him cos I won't know what precious moments I'll miss.

It's a lot like Areosmith's ' I don't want to miss a thing'. I feel pretty aligned with the lyrics.

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing

Corny I know, but he is such a bundle of joy. I'm hopelessly obsessed with him. :)

Almost every single day, he amuses me with his spring of curiosity, and all that innocence.

When I stood before the mirror with him last week, he was busily shifting view between me and my reflection. I felt like carrying a piece of cartoon when he flipped his puzzled face with that kind of speed.

Then earlier this week, he has probably got it. Ahh~ it's a mirror. And the vain baby took all the time to study himself in it.

This evening, he had hiccups when we were playing 'aeroplane', so I walked him around to distract him from the discomfort, and got ourselves before the mirror again.

The cub looked at himself and went hic* smile~ hic* smile~ hic* SMILE~ hic* smile~+SMILE~ hic* smile~

It was so funny I had to summon Bear immediately. Too bad, Bear only managed to catch 2 hics and the show was over.

Now you know why I want to be around the baby so much.

Mirror mirror on the wall, he's the cutest hic*cub of all.

Watching

2011-09-09T19:35:00.009+09:00

These days, I've been watching...

* The uber vain baby, his cuteness overload.

* Beautiful summer sunsets, which I fail to capture for I have the cutie to entertain.

* News... #1 local climate. Typhoon has struck Japan hard for the past week and the southern part has suffered lives lost and serious damages. Tough year for Japan.

*News... #2 Drought in Africa.

I think I haven't mentioned the mails I've been receiving since the arrival of my lil one.

Some of the mails just throw me off when they mention how hard life must be for me now...

A hard life? Hardly! Nothing is harder than watching the people suffering in Africa. Imagine my lil one being the child in this picture. Now this is hard!

Have you ever heard people said, that God isn't fair - The rich gets to squander wealth, while the poor embraces poverty forever. A friend changed my mind when she shared, ' God blesses the rich so that they can help the poor. '

Any amount counts. I think we are all capable of being a blessing to others than just watch.

The World Food Programme is one of the convenient sites to offer a contribution.

“Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’

“Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’

“The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

Matthew 25:34-40

Baby Dedication 28th August 2011

2011-08-31T10:44:00.011+09:00

And so one dearest prayer answered.

My very own baby in a white lacey christening gown.

Everytime a newborn don in purity white shows up before me, I'm filled with awe and envy to tears. For every gift that blessed friends' babies, I prayed that the Lord would bless us too.

And here comes my angel finally. See him beaming and all dressed up in finest cotton.

He was good throughout the dedication, asleep to be exact, so he had no idea how mommy was moved to tears during prayer, no more envy for reason this time.

To raise the child with Lord's wisdom and strength is all on our mind now, that he'll be a blessing to all around him. Alongside, may we grow as parents responsible for the cub's being, that we may be answerable for this marvellous gift entrusted to us... :)

Also, the family clan thing went good.

Apparently, Baby Bear is the only hope that carries on the family name, all the other relatives are having girls and have passed reproductive age. Everybody can't be more pleased with the new addition to family 'O'.

We're blessed.

Children are a heritage from the LORD, offspring a reward from him. Psalm 127 :3

Thanking all for the kind encouragement earlier, we shall take on each outdoor as it comes.

Cheers!

2011-08-26T16:56:00.005+09:00

Enjoying a nice cuppa hot cocoa on a rainy afternoon.

This is not a parenting blog. :P

And the challenges continue...

2011-08-25T14:42:00.018+09:00

The cub is a happy baby at home.

I mean, at home.

When the main door is closed behind us, he starts getting antsy. Then mom gets antsy, and dad joins in.

It isn't too hard to understand what tremendous stress the outdoor imposes on a baby out from the womb for mere weeks. Everything at once is just too much!

Do you know, even the mom isn't the most outdoor person in the world and fidgets at meeting new people!

But we can't stay at home forever. :/ This weekend is going to be especially challenging.

Baby Bear will be formally introduced to the family clan on the 27th. We have relativesssss travelling from different parts of Japan just to meet and bless the child. All these people I don't know, but I must pretend that I still do because I've met them once years ago. There'll be endless exchange of formalities, bowing, and cordial conversation from one cluster to another, I just hope I won't forget which one I'm done with. It will be a very mentally exhausting experience and if I'm not careful, I may end up embarrassing my husband. I don't wish for tongues wagging at his behind, ' This is how things will be like when you get yourself a foreign wife.'

I can only imagine the clanking of glasses, loud excited folks who want to tell how much they are happy for us, karaoke and merry-making... and how uncomfortable Baby Bear will be.

Then on the 28th, he'll be making his debut at church for a baby dedication. I'm excited on this one! And I'm hoping that the cub doesn't cry his lungs out on what's meant to be a very dear memory of my lifetime. The child at the previous dedication obviously didn't like the microphone.

Darling, I know you must be trying so much harder than I do and I better not buckle under nothing yet! Come what may, we'll ride it out. Just try not to turn into a dipped nugget on these days ok?

At 2 months

2011-08-22T10:24:00.020+09:00

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We've ushered the cub into his room 2 weeks ago!

Yes, this is the cross-stitch project completed 12 days, and framed 2 days before his arrival!

We miss hearing his cute grunts and fussing up close, and did worry if the transmission delivers his soft calls at night. Fortunately Bear has a better ear!

With the cub around, everything takes place faster than I can blink and Baby Bear is 2 months old today!

He's a smiler, still a faithful fan of the indoor laundry, and coming up with new tricks under his sleeves.

He gives me that ' Admit it. Don't you just love me? ' look with a seductive smile every now and then, oh see me blush! When he's probably full, he cleverly does it with hope to get away from the boob.

He coos, coos and coos mainly to me and the laundry. Daddy is too boring and has to try harder.

He is definitely starting to play! But he's probably better at flirting.

He laughs with eyes shut as he bobbles, and when he does he makes me cry.

He's quickly losing those cute furry baby hair on his back and other body parts before I could snap them.

He now waits for my return from the washroom and chores knowing mommy is coming back for him.

He loves me singing 'Do-Re-Mi' and 'Edelweiss' from Sound of Music.

I can't place him anywhere without second thoughts anymore cos I swear I caught him flip thrice already!

The biggest challenge would have to be his poo! It isn't diarrheoa but sometimes he poos so much that it leaks from his crotch and back, he needs to be showered! It's like a nugget half dipped into curry sauce whenever he poos that way.

And for being such an angel, mommy is giving him a corner here : ♥ing my Cub. For my nugget so deserves it.

I can't walk away without mentioning how grateful we are for this precious gift from God, and I'm thanking everyone for blessing us too. :)

In a heartbeat

2011-08-09T21:18:00.004+09:00

Just moments ago, I was watching the closing of the National Day Parade online.

Yes! It's National Day, and the birthday of my dearest brother. This day last year, I was back home to celebrate his big day!

It's very stirring humming those oh so familiar songs sung during school days. I bet every Singaporean stationed overseas are connected with home in the same heartbeat. I couldn't help the tears when reciting the national pledge!

I remember the first time I gave Baby Bear a bath, the boy actually flew into a panic and of all songs, the frantic mom blurted out the national anthem hoping to calm him down. ( By the way, it worked ) It's harder than you think that one's roots can be easily forgotten!

Take me out of the island, but you can't take the island out of my heart. Majulah Singapura.

Box of chocolates

2011-07-29T11:43:00.011+09:00

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It's been quite a while that I don't know what day it is since my new role has begun, time has never slipped by so quickly! I often watch the cub with a shade of disbelief, is he what's packed in my tummy back then!?!?

And he's growing so fast!!

At 2 weeks, his eyelashes lengthens and curls. He watches the laundry drying indoor with curiosity.

By 4th week, he gets a 1000 grams heavier, forsaking his newborn size diaper. He has developed a signature temperament, loves mama's milk, bath and cuddles. His need for attention is increasing, and keeps a lookout for the laundry everyday.

At 5th, he smiles a great deal. He starts cooing to himself, and his favorite laundry.

Need I say more? ;)

*****

For folks who would like to hear about the labor - box of chocolates, you'll never know what you're gonna get. I had pads placed around the house just in case, you know what I mean. But the waterbag broke less than an hour before delivery, with assistance by a midwife.

22nd June was a summer solstice, more like the longest day in my life. The pain was encompassing, the fractured tailbone swinging behind for years had to add to it. Hospital clocked the contractions 18 hours and 8 minutes, which explains all that sweat. I'm certainly no tough cookie, but I didn't scream or hissed a single harsh word at my husband. I've probably shredded the bedsheet and uttered 4 or 5 long painful groans though... It took 20 minutes or so to push my lovey out, without assistance of devices.

Uh huh, sounds creamy smooth doesn't it? At a phase, my younger years actually flashed before me. Random images of people in my life, happy times and gruesome ones of Jesus bleeding in pain. In between hallucination and contractions, I couldn't make out anything when the midwives ranted their instructions, I probably could pass out. But some kind souls must have thought of me, I started seeing friends who care and pray, while sober bitterness returned. It was indescribably hard.

Tears flowed as soon as my cub showed up. Seriously, I thought I wouldn't cry, but he was just too beautiful. The instinct that I was worried about not having, kicked in very quickly. :)

There. My box of chocolates, bravest of me. But really, that's not all about it. Again, it's God's grace, His faithfulness that carried me.

満月的宝宝

2011-07-22T17:28:00.013+09:00

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Baby Bear is a month old today. :)

If we're in Singapore, the kid will have a special '1st month' birthday bash like any other newborns, lavished with gifts from relatives and friends. It will be a hassle-brimmed affair, but a special privilege for dad and mom to offer traditional cakes to folks rejoicing with us. Home must be packed with people partying over the lil prince. The fella passed around from arms to arms, with cheeks pinched or rouged red.

But not a shred of that is happening here. 1st month celebration is not a practise known to Japan.

It's a tranquil first month, a little too quiet for a Chinese mother with her first newborn. Too quiet for my liking.

Regardless of what oughts we're missing out in this place, Baby Bear is special, though he may be less celebrated. Happy 満月 my darling.

Special thanks to BP & Val for sharing our joy.

A new addition

2011-07-19T22:31:00.010+09:00

Dear friends, we have a new addition to the family!

Who would have guessed this 333rd post will be one to announce that I've given birth to a 3330 grams healthy baby boy on 22nd June.

I'm still adjusting to things, and taking time to find my momentum now with a lil one on the balance. Hopefully, I'll be hopping by your place soon!

Here's my punk making a scene after being born less than an hour. Now don't be too taken aback by his bawling , he's really quite an angel. ;)

Blooming this June

2011-06-16T10:55:00.015+09:00

We're basking in a comfortable June with a mild monsoon, that rains an amount just alright for the greenery outside without having me to water the fellas. :)

Come see the Japanese Snowbell, definitely my fav tree at home. :D Dainty soft pink bells are exactly how I've hoped they're like, and the blooms have lasted for the past 12 days.

It's such a delight to watch by day, and quite another glamorous sight by night when the tree is lit up.

And meet my first pot of French rose, I just adore the color and fragrance! Now I'm just hoping to keep it well and alive for it is my first rose from Bear, and I wouldn't want it to perish like the first Hydrangea pot from my darling!

Greenery sedates me anytime!

And it's one of the many I thank the Lord for ~ this comfy season I'm in for my present stage, the perfect timing of everything. Nothing's weighing on me now though I am weighing the heaviest all my life. It's the lightness of the spirit that makes me feel like a dove. I'm just thankful for all who cares about us.

I'm sorta laying back and waiting around for things to happen anytime now. The bag is ready to grab and go, and I'm having an inner peace inside though I'm obviously a ticking bomb. A lil peculiar here... my tummy is getting increasingly heavier and bigger over the past week at a rate I've never felt before. Could Breadcrumbs be having a growth spurt?

I don't know but the 2908 grams fella at 38 weeks was really good at amusing us with a scan yesterday. He had a finger inserted into his right nostril, rubbed his eye with a fist, and his lips were moving like a goldfish.

And, he smiled again. :)

Dr had his side view features lined for a clearer picture. Now Breadcrumbs is getting us confused - how is that he resembles me more at the front view, but looking more like Bear from the side? Hmm... Well, we'll find out in a while! :D

At 37 weeks

2011-06-09T11:40:00.009+09:00

Poor mother elephant. It takes about 22 months for an unborn elephant to mature to birth. The shark known as the spiny dogfish has a pregnancy duration of 22-24 months. And at elevations above 4600 feet, the Alpine salamander endures a gestational period of up to 38 months!

Most of my lady friends claim that they can't wait to give birth as soon as they're reaching full term. I'm guessing some may call me a hypocrite if I say I don't, mostly because I'm not feeling particularly uncomfortable at this supposedly heaviest stage.

Breadcrumbs is considered full term today! But I'm choked with emotions when I realise that my kangeroo role is completing anytime soon. No doubt we're anticipating how the fella shall amaze us at birth, and reveals if he has curls like Bear's as I'm hoping, or my eyes like Bear is wishing...

I'm going to miss every single movement Breadcrumbs makes. His kicks, scratches, somersaults and pitiful hiccups. It's a private, secretive intimacy that only the mother and child shares. I remember having a hard time stifling a laugh when he bobbed like crazy while I was trying to pay attention to a stern doc. During the period when I had to be screwed again and again, little Breadcrumbs gave the most timely nudges as if to console me, 'Mommy, be strong!'. Until when I'm finally able to catch him under my thinner layer of clothes, when he moves, he moves my heart.

This experience is surely one of the most joyful in my life I'll remember. For now, I'm cherishing every single tap until the day Breadcrumbs makes his appearance.

And I know life will keep on amazing us. This day next year, I'll get to admire the Japanese snowbells outside with the fella in my arms.

Sprint

2011-06-07T11:47:00.009+09:00

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Giving our full throttle towards the finishing line, while moving into monsoon and juggling with Bear's still hectic working days... We're trying to make our twosome moments count as we count down to baby's arrival which can happen anytime now!

It's a mish mash of feelings. You know the honeymoon is going to be over but a greater adventure awaits at the other end of the bridge.

We've started sleeping in the guest room from last week to avoid using the stairs as much as possible. Which is good unless one likes the bed like how I love mine too too much! I can't sleep very well on mattress and getting up from ground level tatami spins my head like crazy. Guess I'll have to put up with it for several weeks until the confinement is over.

We're finally done with some last couple shots over the weekend! We're so glad we did loosen up a bit, and had some intakes of the balmy early summer since we don't know when we can take off like that again...

I will surely miss the breezy drives with hubby and sitting by rivers, listening to birds or enjoying a cuppa in cafe. I know I shouldn't talk like it's a life sentence I'm serving soon, but there has never been a void even there were just us two. And I'm just so thankful that we've taken enough time...

Anyway, we've discovered a potentially great fishing hangout which we will revisit again when the cub is ready to fish with Papa Bear!

And the fellas may get to meet their cousins because the place is inhabitated by real wild ones!

LOOK! Could this be left by one of their relatives?

This bear says : I wish you'll understand more about me ( so that I won't end up having to bite your butt! ) :P

But let me worry about the boys' fishing business later for my present concern is to eat without reservations for the sake of Breadcrumbs. And since I don't see us eating out often in future with the little one tagging along, I do kinda eat like a convict waiting to serve her life sentence soon... :P

A name

2011-06-03T12:08:00.008+09:00

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We've almost got everything ready for the arrival of Breadcrumbs, except one.

A name.

A name that reverberates to our hearts fondly, and we'll always remember to call with affection and a smile. That insunates values, encourages a fine character, a name the child will be proud of having...

We're still waiting to be inspired. Maybe, we should wait until we meet Breadcrumbs. Maybe that's when.

Meanwhile, do pray for us that we'll be led by the spirit. :)

For June

2011-06-03T12:05:00.004+09:00

Small

2011-06-02T10:35:00.017+09:00

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Breadcrumbs is 36 weeks today.

He weighed 2506 grams yesterday while an average should read 2622 grams. Yes I know, he is like an insignificant 5% lighter, but did I mention he used to be 2 weeks heavier all along until a fortnight ago? I've finally understood why some moms are upset over their 'smaller' kid, while I thought their worry is unfounded if the child is totally healthy. I think I'm getting it now.

But I wouldn't use the word on Breadcrumbs - small. For he could be smaller than how the scanner has measured him. He could be even smaller than the rightful figures by the time he arrives. But so what if he's small. His size doesn't represent what I am capable of or what's short of me. It's pointless to judge. You have no idea how big he is to me.

If there should be anyone small, it's me. It's the weakling in me who cowers at the slightest threat, surrenders to pressure, recoils at hindrance, and owns mistakes which are not mine. When things go bad, I'll look just as bad, because I'm the one bad. I get the biggest slice of blame for everything, it's so easy to associate me with every shit that happens. Because I will never talk back, and you can spin whatever stories behind and you think nobody will know.

Yes. I'm small. Because you've damned me this small. I'm 36, but I'm terrorised like a 5 year old over and over again. Quite simply, am I not nurtured this mentally small and weak, so that you can play big and powerful.

But a closure will come. Those baggages you've fastened on my soul, God will break the hot shackles and help me move on. If there's really a thing like a curse, let it end with me, for I think I've paid and pained enough. With the birth of my own child, I want a rebirth within myself. I want to and I will find my own footing in parenthood. It may be a formula unbeknownst to me, but you can dream on if you think I'll be left to use excruciation that you've been excercising on me so conveniently. My child doesn't deserve it. In the first place, nobody deserves it.

I want to defy the word 'small'. Or I'd like to show you that the microscopic me can make it to the shore that you've been detering me from, because you've never made it there yourself. Make me small, YES! you can shatter my legs but you can never break me. Like it or not, I will grow bigger, stronger, for my child. It will never be like what's between us.

Beautiful May

2011-05-31T18:48:00.006+09:00

Counting down to the last minutes of May 2011, but hmm... it's not happening - the arrival of Breadcrumbs.

The fella is due a month later alright but you know how some first-timers and older moms have their present arrived earlier! So whenever spasms of Braxton Hicks contractions or subtle cramps happen, my heart is sent racing mad fast!! Is it the real thing? Now??

But nope. Looks like Breadcrumbs is still having a good time incubating snug within mommy.

It's alright. May is special enough and I think it's good we don't have all three birthday cakes in same month. :P

Papa Bear says we must fly the fella fishes in the air to celebrate Boy's Day ( or Children's Day ) next May.

I hope it'll put a big smile on Breadcrumbs.

Take your time darling, take your time. And I'm sure God will put you in my arms at the perfect timing. :) Meanwhile, mommy is cherishing every single moment having you so close within me.

This May has been one of the most beautiful.

At 34 weeks

2011-05-23T11:55:00.009+09:00

I'm in my 9th month bagging Breadcrumbs. :)

I've only started putting on this beautiful maternity dress since week 31. In fact, another pair of jeans makes up the entire fashion I have for my maternity journey. I'm so small that ladies in their 7th/8th month carry a tummy prouder than mine. Embarrassment is written all over faces for those who judged me at my 7th. No offense taken cos hellooo, my bump is finally getting noticed and receiving congratulatory gestures!

Aside from daily sashaying, I'm still sleeping soundly on my back. No sign of stretch marks, no discomfort, no significant changes that label ' I'm pregnant, please be more considerate to me. ' I held the door open for preggos in their earlier months but trudging harder. I'm totally dismissed for a questionnaire targetted at preggos that comes with a cute gift. Obviously, my tummy isn't obvious enough!

But I'm thankful for this wonderfully easy journey, when I could be enduring possible discomfort in my final trimester. In fact, a week of swelling at 21st March was all I remember. Breadcrumbs is weighing good at 2147grams and seems to react knowingly to stimulation. Nah... I know. It could purely be a mommy's wishful imagination. :P

Anyway, catch my 34 weeks 1 day darling pout, smooch and sticking tongue out. The umbilical cordie does run under his chin sometimes.

My darling had to sleep! when we attempted the 4D scan first time a week ago! This time, I deliberately had an early breakfast with hope that he'll wake up timely and nudge me for an intake. I brought my player along too. That's how we caught him pinched his nose, rubbed his face and had a lot of cute pouts.

You know how Breadcrumbs reacted to Claire de lune that we hear all the time?

He gave us 2 smiles that day. :))

Blooming this year

2011-05-16T11:09:00.011+09:00

Inside, we have Rowndy my most faithful friend, which I've let down a little during winter due to morning sickness, but it bloomed ungrudingly anyway. Can't ask for more! :D

Outdoor, the tulips are inviting butterflies and bees like I've hoped. Gee I never knew that they are such lasting flowers. At the eastern wing, I have a surplus planted for vase decor so the florists won't be seeing me for quite a while.

Catch my new addition of Lavender shrubs from the bird's eye view!

We chose a Japanese Maple and a Benthemidia Florida from the council, gifted to us this March, and bro D helped with the planting before he left for Singapore.　Benthemidia Florida has such beautiful flowers!

And the Japanese snowbell is blooming soon in June.

Now everyone is doing fine except my fav Hydrangeas. CRY! I'm utterly ashamed cos Hydrangeas ARE hardy plants so something must be wrong with my handling!

On a lighter note I'm definitely feeling spirited now compared weeks ago, when the hospital matter sorta shook me bad... But a miracle is happening, I've transferred to this excellent hospital that meets my every single need!! Now you oughta know things are rock rigid in Japan, like it's impossible to recall the plane taken off, but YES, I am hopping onto the flight of hope, by the grace of my mighty God.

It's like seeing a rainbow after a rain of desperation. :) I'm sure I'll be empowered for what may come. For God is in control.

My sweetest guys

2011-05-12T15:00:00.001+09:00

Today, Bear turns 47 while his junior gets 33 weeks along.

I'm saying no thanks to a floured kitchen this year, and redeeming things with a homemade dinner course tonight. Did fetch some pasteries for dessert during my walkie though. Oh yes, the walkie that Breadcrumbs gave several excited ( read : painful ) kicks for reason I know not. (**)

And since Bear eats almost anything, I obeyed my preference. Cos, what I want = what Breadcrumbs wants.

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I can't help giving in to Breadcrumbs, the fella has my heart in his hand!! I just noticed it days ago when I was studying the ultrasound scan again.

Sorry Bear, I can't decide which one of you I like better but surely you are my sweetest guys. Happy Birthday Luv.

May 2011

2011-05-11T08:46:00.013+09:00

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The busiest May of all I remember. With Bear mostly working overtime, us attending to what means business, and snap; the Golden Week holiday is over. Brief like the blossoms.

There are issues still suspending in the air, especially the hospital thing, what looks like insanity to mom of baby turning 33 weeks tomorrow. Admit it, you must be thinking 'Hey, this shouldn't be happening!' But darn, it is.

Anyway, to forget about Japan's environment I'm dealing with, I'm diving into the comfort of food before my sentence begins. Amusingly, I'm craving more meat and sweet treats as days go by, if you know how much I've never liked them. I just don't recognise myself anymore! (**)

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The present situation is a lot like how much we've missed out this Spring, but I don't want to forget a thankful attitude, cos I know my guy tries very hard to salvage things, and color my 'last days' happy. And also, the avid golfer is quitting the sport for an indefinite period to lend his paws at home. I hope it's a good sign that the Bear desires to be domesticated!

I hope everyone else is having a sweeter Spring.

Make it count

2011-05-10T19:03:00.013+09:00

I realise how very little pictures we have of us since married.

It rang louder since the recent tsunami. When I caught an uncle on tv : A picture of his missing partner in his wallet was the only trace he had as he searched on.

Bear and I are always fighting over the camera, capturing each other on secret shots, but neither of us is dilligent with setting up the tripod. The picture he has of us in his wallet is taken while we were dating, while I've long emptied the compartments to make way for cards. Almost every of my friends on Facebook questioned ' why isn't there a picture of you two on your profile? '

Suddenly it dawns on me, have we been taking ourselves for granted all these years. Do I have something concrete of Bear if everything were to be swept clean off me this very moment?

So I suggested pictures of us, this May - our special month. Bear couldn't agree more, but first he would need a hair cut. He has crazy curls you see, and vain Bear desires to look smart beside me. Fine... but his curls are totally out of control now even when the long hols are over, there's just no time to visit the stylist.

Oh yes... Time, this one too. Haven't we been taking all these years for granted also I wonder?

I'm not the most spontaneous person in the world, and I just don't know what holds me back sometimes. Not sure how it works, but I'm hoping to make things count from now on. Anything, everything.

7

2011-04-30T13:59:00.007+09:00

Bless the Royal Wedding! I loooove every single second of the fairy-tale-turned-real-deal!!

Kate was a stunning knockout! The couple seems deeply in love, every part of the wedding so tastefully done, that some twisted cynic may secretly wipe off a happy tear for them.

When Bear slipped an invisible ring on me to mimic Prince William at that holy moment, I could have my arms thrown around him but this weight had to hinder me from inching further.

For a second, the enchanting couple makes one forget about what lies behind the sensational nuptial : the reality of marriage. Hair-tearing issues aside, sometimes you just wish that minors like dinner can wait after the kiss at the balcony. But it's ok... for the multitude of bliss covers it all. :)

By God's grace, we'll be married for 7 thankful years tomorrow. To Him who doesn't refrain good things from His children, we're asking that God bestows us with more than all we ask and imagine.

To Kate & William, and every couple out there whose union is no less sacred in God's eyes, He blesses your marriage too I pray.

At 31 weeks

2011-04-28T10:12:00.017+09:00

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Yup, the fella is 31 weeks today and we're in the last lap ( 3rd trimester ) since week 28!

Here's my 1545grams darling looking our way at 30th week. It's the first time we caught his features frontal! Aww...those cheeks melt me! :D

The gynae is often amused and would give the same comment everytime with a chuckle :
1. Baby moves a lot ( and gynae would start fumbling the scanner across tummy )
2. Long legs.

Now how would the mommy not know. Breadcrumbs is enjoying play gym in womb.inc while subscribing membership with painful kicks since week 28. He shakes this globe in front of me so much, as if I would forget he's there!

While having Breadcrumbs baking in the oven, we're busy tying loose ends to make the baby-goods list complete. Needless to say, Bear dotes on the cub like crazy.

But merchandise isn't everything in the world you know, and I hope that Bear picks up the other everything before time cos he's the only help I'm having.

Anyway, the baby room is almost furnished to receive the cub. Complying Bear's theory, everything is themed 'bear' so as to make Breadcrumbs feel comfy at home.

Breadcrumbs' uncle D helped do up the crib before he returned to Singapore in March.

As you can tell, we're forgoing co-sleep with the fella, which is not a common practise in Japanese families. It isn't often that the traditional Bear gives in to modern ideas, and I'm glad that his approaches have been very encouraging so far. :) [ Just one, he really needs to lend his hands more. ]

It's a pleasure popping into the baby room every morning to let in the sunshine. I always find myself smiling. :)

April free and easy

2011-04-26T14:06:00.012+09:00

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April is a busy month for most Japanese for it's when a new fiscal year begins. As Bear channels his spring-like vitality in the office and burns Sats, April is mine free and easy. I'm literally taking time to have home spring-cleaned, so that I'll have less to battle later. Being focused on what's within, I've lost sight of what's without until Bear reminds me how the greenery is getting exciting. Oh yes, and pictures demanded as the guy doesn't get to appreciate the blooms slow.

A tree（檀香梅）at home is done with flowering. Another 2 coming up in late Spring. :)

The welcoming Narcissus are blooming along the walkway.

Tulips are budding, picture taken on a misty morning.

I'm rewarding myself to sweet treats available only in Spring. Bear has his share too after working overtime.

My place is accessible to every neighbourhood facility by foot so I have a 101 chance for slow walks.

Slow walks in April would mean admiring sakura up close or have the trees towering tall over me.

About this slow walk thing I'm having, it has the effect of rocking Breadcrumbs to sleep. So is it good or bad you think? I thought it's time I start some excercise. But what if the fella wouldn't sleep without me walking him in future? :/

Getting up

2011-04-15T09:23:00.016+09:00

Since the 11th March tsunami, it has been difficult to do anything like it's just any other day when your neighbours are mourning. So this heavy heart stayed away for a while.

I'm sure many of us are thinking of Japan. Please know how much the Japanese appreciate every single help and thoughts extended, they are tremendously encouraged.

Like how the local media put it well, it's time the rest of us pick up ourselves so that we can help those who are in desperate need. It's Spring time, and many have hopes that the nation will make a comeback with a spring-like vitality.

だから、頑張れ！　日本。 ( So, hang in there and move forth! Japan. )

Over the past weeks, many friends have been worried by the appalling news and asked for my return to Singapore.

You see, I didn't marry Bear so that I could live in Japan. Neither am I leaving Bear when Japan is in trouble.

So I'm staying. Japan is home, no longer a place I find myself living in just because I'm married overseas. And to realise what's been resolved unconciously in my heart at this fairly precarious time, an unexplainable happiness oozes from within. I guess I owe it to too many Japanese who have been nice to me, and that silly Bear who loves me deeply.

And together with Breadcrumbs, we want to be those who stay around. We'll be fine. God will surely take care of us. So thanks for the love and concern.

Well, 春は戻ってくるの。　For Spring shall surely return.

We had our names inscribed on this wooden coaster a few days ago when we were off to watch the plum blossoms. It's quite an art piece huh?

It's here...

2011-04-14T14:57:00.005+09:00

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Spring is late this year, for like 2 weeks? But it's better than never.

Peace

2011-03-24T08:39:00.013+09:00

Almost 2 weeks have passed since the enormous earthquake hit Japan. But it feels like the whole thing just took place yesterday.

The damage is mounting, deceased counting, and pressure cooking with the unresolved problems at the Fukushima nuclear plant. But I don't want to complain or let the stress get better of me. There are countless people enduring tremendous suffering out there, brave people sacrificing their health to salvage the situation... I don't want to sit, whine, and act like I'm the one in pain.

I had my brother sent back on Monday, 2 months earlier than the supposed departure. He's the only son in the family, it's the right thing to do rather than exposing him to unnecessary risk. A huge load is off my back now.

At the moment, the water and air quality at my region are still excellent. Life is pretty much as usual for the time being. I'm staying put as long as the situation doesn't threaten Breadcrumbs. And trusting the Lord to take care of of the little one within. He is 26 weeks today, active as usual if not more, and starting tickling me with his fingers I believe. The fella is quite some mischief. :)

I don't know if it's a hopeless idiocy or the otherwise I'm having. With Breadcrumbs, I actually feel stronger, braver. Or maybe, it's the Lord who's enabling me all along. Nobody is sure of how things will turn out, but I want to continue trusting the Lord to take care of us.

You know. In times of trouble, the good part is you get to see who are the ones who genuinely care about you. And be inspired by the nobility of great humane love showered even upon strangers. Happenings do teach quite some valuable lessons you don't learn in peaceful times.

The last thing to do, in my opinion... Don't add oil to fire. Don't.

Please continue to help Japan through your feasible means. Every thought counts.

And may peace be restored throughout the earth I pray. The world has more than enough of inevitable suffering. What's deliberate and imposed have better stopped.

God bless everyone.

3月11日の大地震

2011-03-15T12:14:00.004+09:00

I'm thanking everybody here for your concern and prayers. We are really ok. Our place isn't affected by the recent earthquake on 11th March, but the entire country is surely expecting great tremors for another week or so.

The rest of the nation will have to stay strong and deal with the difficulties coping with the aftermath. We are trying to stay focused and see how we can help. You too can help by offering a contribution through feasible means, or prayers.

It's selfish thinking about my private concern now.. I really pray that my brother will reach home in Singapore safe and sound by the time he returns on 21st May. The rest of the nation stays intact with no further damages. And Breadcrumbs be born safe.. he's so precious to us.

I feel bad about not logging in as much as I like and replying late. Our home is trying to conserve energy and resources as much possible so that they can reach the more needy parties. Be back when things get better. God bless everyone of you out there.

The cutest company

2011-03-04T09:42:00.004+09:00

I haven't vanished. My brother D has arrived our place for a week or so.

I love time alone. But if anyone knows what it's like by having most of the weekdays to yourself , you'll get my meaning of having a constant company for lunch, a pair of very helpful hands, and heartful laughters; loads of them. I'm really having a good time, and I'm thankful to God for the perfect timing of everything. :)

Breadcrumbs seems to be very pleased with our visitor, I think he will be excited about playing with uncle D in future. :D

Oh yes! He could be seen squirming under my belly since Monday. It really is an indescribable feeling catching him visually. Here he goes again.

The fella is getting stronger and active than ever, his motions even getting patterned. I should be able to see a constant trend if I plot a graph with his timing and vigor. :D

So, the company I'm having at the present? The cutest people in my life. :)

Something's gotta give

2011-02-23T10:19:00.004+09:00

So we said 'bye' for the time being.. My college buddies are finished with their studies and starting work in April, while I'm advancing in size. We're so used to hanging out in the warmer seasons, but things will have to make way for much transition this year. Gotta miss them.

Then a pet shop called to inform that the Bichon Frise I've inquired about is available! Several weeks before Breadcrumbs landed up in my womb, we've been looking places for a Bichon puppy but to no avail then.

Do you have any idea how cuuuuute Bichon Frise is?? I simply musn't go see the puppy now or I'll be sold.

Something's gotta give, our carefree lifestyle will be expired soon and I want to be responsible. Sometimes I'm wondering what could be next. But I'm hoping that there'll come a day we'll have a Bichon running about happily.

At 21 weeks

2011-02-20T09:44:00.013+09:00

Eating better and moving swifter, I'm totally thankful that the morning sickness doesn't stay around to see me through. Really feel for those preggos who'd have to endure the thing throughout, God please bless the mothers!!

Since when I started loving anything smooth and creamy : ice-cream, custard, cheese, Japanese curry... yum. And even meats, eggs, things that weren't in my idea of food chain. Bear sometimes watched with disbelief, 'You're sure you really like that?' It's amazing how a 21 weeks old at 358 grams is capable of reforming some 35 years of stinking fussy appetite. :P

While waiting to meet the gynae yesterday, Breadcrumbs was busy thumping away to my crazy throbbing. I was both excited about seeing my luv, and nervous about the gender thing, argh I think the whole room could hear my heartbeat.

And I'm not sure if we were kept waiting too long, it was the first time I saw the fella having a break instead of the regular gymnastics. 'Everything's great. ' said doc, 'Let's find out the gender!'

There is this cross stitch project I started on when I found out I'm pregnant. It's a motif having a baby asleep in a cot that should be sewed in the dominating color. And since Breadcrumbs had the family jewels baring out like that, doc revealed that I should go ahead and have the cot sewed in baby blue.

We were a little... stupefied. But it didn't last long when Breadcrumbs awoke with his hungry protests, so the family rushed off for a day of celebration and intent shopping!

Whenever the season

2011-02-17T14:44:00.008+09:00

Our place is finally having more snow, at a volume just nice for snowman and needless to shovel. Yes, this I'm very grateful for. :)

Then yesterday we had warmth like Springtime. I guess a transition is coming about when sun and snow are taking turns like that. Hang on there poor little birdies.

Can't help but feel that the days are really moving fast, and as they add on, changes are making their way with some I may not like them - like another dear friend who has to move away. But it's all good, it's for the entire good...

God is good, whenever the season. I want to grow more amenable with time, and raise a childlike faith. Cherish, whatever the season.

Shaved ice, nature made. Anyone?

Happy Valentine's Day

2011-02-14T17:15:00.005+09:00

I know of people who totally disregard Valentine's Day with a pragmatic maturity, which I totally respect. And of course I'm surrounded by love birds who'd not let the day pass less special.

Unbashfully, I come from the second lot. Well, that is for now.

Anyhow I see it, I don't see us celebrating Valentine's Day like we did for many years coming. So I offered a slow meal with my partner, while wishing there's a way to thank Bear enough. I hope he doesn't forget how once I was a romancist, and thought of him really special, precious. He still is, always is.

The food wasn't exceptional, but I hope he remembers my loving is.

I had hearts in my soup that day you know.

And here you go, the mosiac for 2011. Happy Valentine's Day everyone. :)

Diamond dust

2011-02-13T09:37:00.006+09:00

Woke up to an overcast Saturday morning after a heavy overnight snow. Had the blinds drawn when Mr. Sun started peering through and gave the white mass a grand sparkle. Then it happened, when the skies started clearing up...

Diamond dust. Bear taught that the phenomenon takes several prerequisites to happen, so you've got to be really lucky to catch one. Like my first encounter 5 years ago, the glamor yesterday lasted for a good half an hour. The garden looked as if dusted with shimmering diamonds descending from the air, just... magical. And we looked on, awed by the Maker of all things magnificient.

Oh, the shot isn't mine.

Happy

2011-02-09T14:26:00.005+09:00

There's this undescribable lightness under my feet these days.

*I feel bliss with every wisp of flutter Breadcrumbs makes day and night. Ah yes, before and after meals, and the fella being most active in the afternoon, like this moment. :) On weekend mornings, still in bed, it's amusing how Breadcrumbs gives me some strongest nudges as if to press for breakfast.

*I have a lot to thank the cold for. Not only I'm recovering, I've discovered that I no longer need the meds that curb nausea. Recovering agility and vigility, I guess the morning sickness is finally over.

*Yays when my closest friend in Japan has decided to reside in this country permanently! Not for my sake alright, but we just can't stand losing the other oar!

*We're finally gathering goods listed on that intimidating sheet - stuff for newborn. Imagination ran wild when the baby carrier was here this morning. I think I've forgotten how babies weigh, smell, play and cry like, how babies are really like.

*Before finding out how the newborn is like, I shall enjoy the sweet company of my baby brother coming my place in 2 weeks' time. What reassurance to have him around, my personal laughing pie. And his strong arms can sure help me a lot. Heheh.

I'm having myself back, getting better grasp of things and behold, Spring is moving closer. I can't think of a reason not feeling happy.

But I think I need a nap now. Ok, the sleepy thing still hangs around.

Do the hop!

2011-02-02T09:56:00.005+09:00

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It's the eve of the Chinese New Year! Here's wishing every Chinese a bouncy good year, good health, happiness and prosperity!

發、發、發！

Getting thru by grace

2011-01-28T14:10:00.011+09:00

A cold had to find me since 3 days ago, though I've kept it well at bay for the last icy seasons.

It's very discouraging, especially at such times. When I'm not feeling anywhere near best, when the climate is cold, when my apetite is not coming back ( a not eating Singaporean is an angry Singaporean ) when a nagging backache gets worse with days, when my doctor's assistant nags that I should look around for experienced mothers' help, while she doesn't understand how hard some walls stand to break. I should be already shaking legs at Singapore during this period of time, joining my family to welcome the Chinese New Year, probably having a bad throat and indigestion due to over-consumption of sinful goodies, instead of cooping up here hoping that the next cough is not adding to the existing queasiness.

I miss pa, everyone else at home, my friends, and everything Singapore. It's bitter sweet reading how everybody is preparing for the New Year celebration back there.

But the agony eased up when I awoke this morning, surprisingly whole lot more relieved from the cold after just a dose of meds. I'm sort of astonished. For the previous colds, I've never ever got by any without suffering more than 2 weeks, or a month in winter.

God is good. When things get unexplainably good when it's supposedly bad, I can't help but ascribe it to His goodness. His compassion never fails. It's the bitterness this time I percieve what sweetness is.

I think I will get through. By His grace I'm sure, there's more sweetness to discover ahead in life.

At 17 weeks

2011-01-23T11:07:00.010+09:00

Tickets for the World Championships sold out in less than 20 minutes yesterday. We didn't even manage to catch an operator on the phone or capture the page online.

But I'm actually secretly happy, knowing that there'll be no tiresome travelling, jostling and putting up at hotel by when I'll be heavier. I guess I'll be gratified enjoying the telecast at the comfort of home. So thanks for all the wishes, I think we've got what's best for us. :)

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As for Bear, he put it all behind him as soon as when we've met up with the gynae. And meeting baby whom we've been calling and so for the time being, 'Breadcrumbs'. :)

At 17 weeks & 3 days, the fella is developing 6 days ahead while mommy lost a whopping 6kgs during the 1st trimester.

I didn't know that I'm already in my 5th month! I think I look relatively small then but doctor is assuring me that baby weighs good at 157grams.

What's most exciting would have to be seeing Breadcrumbs on screen. In less than 10 minutes, the fella sucked its thump, rested a fist upon the forehead like it got a headache, waving, flexing, and krumpin' bo diam ( Singaporean slang for 'restlessly' ). This mama shouldn't have been watching too much ' So you think you can dance '.

I'm more than sure now. Those bobbing since 13th week were from the little Krumper then. ;)

Doctor discloses the gender not until 20 weeks. Whichever. Nothing else really matters besides Breadcrumbs developing healthily. :)

Hey!

2011-01-18T14:33:00.007+09:00

Nah, the ballot didn't happen for us.

Bear is tremendously disappointed while on the other hand, I'm sorta relieved about the gone need to endure a journey to Tokyo. Or... is it the Ah Q mentality at work this time.

But honestly on this one, I'm displeased with people offering their tickets jacked up 3 times on the internet auction. Hey!

Anyway, a telephone line booth will be opened this Saturday, though tix is limited. Dicey I know, it's still a 2nd chance! ;)

First wager of the year!

2011-01-13T13:24:00.007+09:00

In case wishes do run out... I'm not even going to hope that she takes the title. All I wish is to see Kim Yuna in person this year!!

My most adored sportswoman to date, super heroine, reigning Figure Skating gold medalist of Winter Olympics games, epitome of a girl... Ahh...

Since 2007, I've been waiting for her to compete in Japan again, and SHE IS coming for the World Championships this March!

Admission is sharp, a ballot system has to be implemented as there is an overwhelming demand of 80 times more compared to past ticketing!

And rumors have it that Kim Yuna may be competing for the last time in her skating career! Jitters.

So you see I've just GOT TO go see her! I've never liked using the word, but please wish me luck! Or you can pray, bribe the ticketing counter, or lend me your guns.

ARRR!!! &%#&#@!!! Ballot results are out on 17th Jan. May the longest necks get the seats!

Year of Rabbit

2011-01-09T11:07:00.009+09:00

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Do you know that it's the year of 'Rabbit' according to the oriental zodiac, yup it works for the Japs too. But it's a 'Boar' for the Jap's version while the Chinese are having theirs as 'Pig'.

Year after year like many other homes, we've been celebrating the Japanese new year in a totally busy and exciting fashion. Definitely not this year though.

Less is more - been trying to convince myself that minimalism is a virtue this time. Can only afford to do this much with this little I'm consuming, how much can you wring out of a hard dried towel really? I'm forgiven for not being able to give home a total clean. Forgiven for preparing nothing for celebration meals and forgiven over miscellaneous obgliations. I. am. forgiven.

It's my year ( ok, the rabbit is let out of the bag ). I call the shots - Bear slaves.

He got this gorgeous new year ornament to honor the rabbit highness at home. In Japan, all pretty things come pricey, but we've decided that only the relevant zodiac years need exaltation. Besides, I deserve it. :P

Correction. We deserve it, me and the little one within. ;)

Cheers to 2011

2011-01-07T15:12:00.011+09:00

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300th post.

Celebrating friends who've been putting up with the past 299 ~ you're the sweetest.

Happy New Year, and thank you

2011-01-01T15:39:00.007+09:00

Happy New Year! Wishing everybody a great 2011 from the bottom of my heart - good health, peace and joy. Every single goodness you've been thinking fondly of!

The God-Blessed Box is 3, and a post to its 300th. Thank you for being you around, if you still are. It's an insipid lifestyle I'm recording, so thanks for bearing with everything. And thank you for the sweet friendship - it's like being treated with an extra topping on ice-cream cos it's a special day.

Christmas 2010

2010-12-28T14:30:00.009+09:00

Perhaps the most extraordinary Christmas to date!

Although home is hardly Christmassy this year, we had a beautiful white Christmas morning the natural way!

I had nothing laid down for dinner, so we settled for pizza. Miracle of all I could clean up half of it!!! HALF! If you knew how very little I've been consuming for the past weeks.

The search is over. The best Christmas cake crowned and if the rival bakeries aren't tearing it down, we're returning to this log cake for good. Yay!!

The only traditional part would have to be me making a call home on every Christmas. Besides, it's time that dad knows...

You see...

We're having a baby! Our first baby!

'Everything's great!' said gynae on the Christmas morning appointment, which also means we've passed the 1st Trimester. We - Bear, baby and I.

The past weeks have been unbelievable. Everything happened so quickly, overwhelming us all at once with none of our mental, physical or spiritual aspect ready! But God held the whole thing together with an enormous grace, more than we have asked. He is SO GOOD to us, praise Him!

Now I can't wait to eat like a normal human being again, you know how much I love to eat! Been sick like a dog for weeks due to morning sickness, am really looking forward to run my former powerhouse soon.

So, the baby beans spilled! I don't know why but it takes mammoth courage to do so. I can't even bring myself to tell most of my friends. Like many 1st time moms, I feel like attempting a walk rope without a harness, with all eyes watching but no one's ready to catch!

But I want this place to record God's wondrous works in our lives, this one especially. It'll be a joy to have kind souls join us in the baby watch. We need all the blessings in the world now!

Thank you... and note to friends connected on Facebook, it's in the vault alright? ;)

Last but not least, my heartfelt thanks especially to bp for praying and guiding along the way, things would have been so much harder without you... I'm truly blessed. :)

Handmade by Helena

2010-12-27T13:56:00.007+09:00

I've received Christmas goodies from talented Helena again this year!

Handmade Christmas card ~ hand-painted-crafted-sealed with love.

And... come spot the heart!

Noticed it has a star tailed at the bottom? Sadly, I didn't do up the Christmas tree this year else it'll be dancing on one of the branches. This heart ornament even emits a beautiful scent!

Surely surely, Helena didn't forget to make me a bookmark with my favorite birdie! She writes, crafts, paints, sews, gardens.. her list of gifts goes on. Some people just have it all, right? Not fair!

Thank you Helena, for the thoughts sent across despite having those mounts of challenges. Sometimes 'thank yous' just ain't enough. I'm praying that the new year will be kinder, and the deepest joy finds you and yours. You know I'm here, all the time.

Merry Christmas!!

2010-12-24T11:09:00.006+09:00

This must be my longest wait to Christmas. Ironically, the tree isn't pitched, the exterior illumination chucked away. I haven't left the house for long unless neccessary, so I barely capture the festive mood outside. It's the most quiet December we've had since together.

Still, does it matter?

The cross is long pitched in my heart, shedding the light of hope that nothing supercedes- so precious, I often wonder if my heart is prepared and made fitting for Jesus to come reside. Christmas has never been more Christmassy, until I had the Jesus in my deepest chambers.

Happy Birthday, and thank you for this day we celebrate You Lord!

Merry Christmas, everyone.

Julie & Julia

2010-12-19T13:13:00.011+09:00

I looooove this sweet film.

It's lighthearted, inspiring, and gives an honest aspect on how ladies in the past and present tried finding their place, and found their niche in the kitchen.

Kitchen! Bliss at that proximity!

I'm no cooking goddess, but really I resonate that joy in Julie and Julia. I miss the happiness of cooking, homemade dishes that Bear digs... especially so when I've stopped messing up my kitchen cold turkey for as long as 6 weeks already.

The spirit wanted to prance on my apron and start whisking something, all I'm thinking of is doing that 'most beautiful roasted chicken in the world' after watching the film! I'm thinking Julia Child, yes I saw the name in the cookbooks corner before. But before I make the leap, anyone tried her poultry? Crashed and burnt?

You see, I'm no Julie. :P

Count your blessings instead of sheep

2010-12-15T15:50:00.009+09:00

It's 10 days to Christmas. ;)

December would mean that home is playing songs in a festive fashion. All of my CDs are so old that I've registered each song by heart, still I've never grown tired of them. It's like listening them for the first time every December. :)

Hear this number that especially touches me this year, from Diana Krall's Christmas Songs.
A simple oldie delivered with a modern spin, but the message remains everlasting strong and true.

First snow

2010-12-08T15:18:00.006+09:00

I knew Iwould be in it if I don't calm the hunger pangs at that odd hour. So I peeled myself off bed and reached for that half finished Ritz snack. But really. I'm so sick of it already.

Crouching before the heater as I nibbled, I felt so... miserable, wondering if finishing the pack would help me fight the stairs later to get back to bed. Could I just drop and sleep where I was? Sniff...

Everything felt... wrong. Engulfed by an icy silence, I felt like everything else was slowly eating me up. Wait a minute. Wasn't it pitter-pattering hours earlier? Instincts ordered the curtains be drawn.

There it was. First snow, midnight of 8th Dec. Ice pixies riding on flakes and wheeeed their way down, forming fluffy mounts that glittered. Everything breathtakingly beautiful, clustered in shimmering white.

Snow. It always feels like how I've seen it for the first time. I know, I know. I'm a broken record since I've blogged about the first winter.

Hi pretty. So we meet again. :)

Jesus carried me back to bed anyway. Felt better than I thought I would be. 雪見 ( yukimi : snow-watching ) with Ritz crackers - not bad. :D

Phillipians 4

2010-12-01T10:07:00.004+09:00

To : me

Excerpts from Phillipians 4.

Verse 4 ~9

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Verse 13

I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

Amen. And don't ever forget, oh my soul.

A year! At Shawood.

2010-11-26T08:53:00.007+09:00

Someone sent a bouquet of flowers!

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I was puzzled by the pretty surprise at first, and worried about Bear's reaction, he's a jealous guy.

Well, before this ego could get bigger, I found out it's a bouquet from the house building company that celebrates our 1st year at home. Ah yes, we moved last year 28th November.

It's sitting nicely at the niche now.

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Dear God, the past year has been wonderful! Nothing beats the comfort of home, and we're thankful. :)

When is snow falling?

2010-11-24T14:05:00.005+09:00

I'm excited about seeing friends in US having snow!!! SNOW!

It's still falling leaves we're seeing here... So the question goes, when is snow going to fall?

First snow was pretty early the previous years, so I guess it's time we see flakes coming. Right now, I'm smelling anything else but trees ( whenever my funny nose smells trees, that's when I know snow is about to fall )

So I'm tracking... and meanwhile, enjoying the last colors of fall.

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And spotting my silly passion...

日光　Nikko

2010-11-22T09:25:00.016+09:00

Am hoping that anyone else is doing better, while much is happening here these days, zapping energy fast. zzz...

Which explains why I'm blogging a lil behind, even for the trip to 日光 ( Nikko ) in early November when Bear had a week break.

I've heard so much about Nikko - which encompasses one the World Heritage Sites belonging to Japan, and many renown hot springs. Am taunted from time to time, 'How could you live in Japan and not gone to Nikko?' So Bear decided to check one down in my bucket list, and drove all those loathsome 12 hours - to and fro.

Well, to each his own. Turns out Nikko isn't our kind of nirvana. The scale and finesse are hardly superlative compared to others I've seen, and I've concluded that pictures in books and magazines can be deceiving. Structures are ancient alright but heavy with repaint - I'm the kind who appreciates good pictures, rather than images cleverly photoshoped, get my drift?

　
The red lacquered 神橋 ( Shinkyo : Sacred Bridge ) that arches over the Daiya River. It could only be used by the emperor during feudal times.

Famous 5 storied pagoda, around 36 meters high, an anti-earthquake construction.

Shrines and temples, constructed in glittering gold, but not good enough to awe the visitors. Here in the assuming 'holy ground', the Japanese visitors were endlessly bad mouthing about the visitors of mainland China, the opposite didn't relent either. Imagine me comprehending both sides. I'm just baffled. If these visitors are buddhists and believers, how do they bring themselves to utter slander so openly before their gods and deities?

The three wise monkeys that embody the proverbial principle - see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil.

View from 'that famous window'.

Lotsa national treasures within, but no pictures allowed.

Endless towering cedar trees, and gravelled paths. Heed my word, NEVER go in heels like me, wear a pair of steady flats.

This Maple tree is the oldest within the premise.

And off we went to catch some Nikko's falls and fall.

To sum it all... I'm hardly impressed with the reknown sites. People were generally unfriendly. We were prepared to spend liberally but the souveniers weren't attractive, in fact, I bought nothing. I've figured that we've spent more on parking. The accomodation paid with a fat fee didn't fetch a memorable stay. I'm not craving any local delicacy after the trip. This is Nikko, if you ask me. Well at least I've been there once, and for good.

I guess what's memorable is Bear's sweet personality, despite those awful driving, lack of parking lots, and disappointing outcomes. He's a joy to travel with even on a mediocre trip. :)

In memory of 森本先生

2010-11-17T09:55:00.002+09:00

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先生、今までの優しさと沢山の祝福　ありがとうございました。　どうか天国でご家族と皆さんのことを暖かく見守ってください。　会える日まで。。。

森本先生

2010-11-11T09:42:00.004+09:00

It's hard. Bear received a call this morning. Our Pastor in church has passed away last night.

But I know he's now looking down at us from heaven and seeing the glory of God he's been serving his entire life.

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Back from the Australian desert

2010-11-08T15:42:00.008+09:00

Thank all of you who have prayed for my baby brother. He's finally home after some harsh time in the Australian desert.

I got this T-shirt during my recent trip back to Singapore. My baby brother owns one too, and another one here. Love its personality, and look how vocal the message, I should wear it before Bear everyday. ;P

My bro will be fulfilling the military conscription in a mere week's time. How fast 2 years have gone by huh.

It's been tough for the boys in army. There were glorious moments too among mostly demanding periods, whichever it was I was never able to be there for him. But my baby bro has never whined or lamented over the painful moulding. He went in a boy, now stands a man. Somehow, he's overshadowed me by lightyears, we've switched roles and I'm the one being taken care of now. I'm just so proud of him, and thankful to all Singaporean boys who serve our country, they truly deserve some respectful recognition.

This feeling is just intensified after spending time with guys who have never known hardship in the army. Bear? I doubt he can survive a day or even hours.

靴下を片付けてください！

That was me screaming 'Please don't just leave your socks there!' for over a million times.

Don't make me angry. Really.

Time that I outgrow it

2010-11-03T09:53:00.008+09:00

Since young, I've lost count of people telling me what great hair I have. It's silky, lustrous, it falls into place with a gust of wind instead of getting messed up, the kind that people will spend hundreds in saloon just to own for months. It sure lacks a little body, but it hardly requires maintenance. In fact, I don't even bother to blow dry my hair, it's the kindest thing that I wear. I often step out of home thanking God what a manageable head He gives me.

But the spell breaks whenever a snip takes place. A pair of sisscors is the last thing on earth that can damage my precious locks. Somehow, fly outs boldly protest at the loss of the severed ends , and manz, they sure are crossed. It hurts. I've never felt less confident, especially with seeing that dishevelled shocker gasping in the mirror every morning, ok who's spooking who here. And the shorter it gets, the more severe it is with the fly outs! Surely I'll beat any other on the street with some outlandish outfit. It's the most hilarious sight you must see.

Use a dryer! I know. But I don't use a dryer at all remember, so obviously I'm not good at it. Even if the fly outs are done for, it'll a nice round big fleshy mushroom I'll have to settle for this time. Several meters away, it'll be mistaken for some lazy afro.

So you thought you had another bad hair day, with this length I'm having, it lasts for months till the satin effect kicks in again. :(

Then again, it's just hair. Time that I outgrow it.

Boo

2010-10-29T09:30:00.006+09:00

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Heart from a pumpkin!

And furtive felines that come and go like nobody's business, marking territority and leaving deposits. Beautiful creatures they sure are... But I've finally arrived at a big conclusion : I'm definitely a dog person.

First, I don't know what it is about cats, or me, they actually CHASE after me!! After having witnessed how I ran for my life a couple of times, Bear would cover me from any cat seemingly menacing. Not all of them nasty I would say, like the fella above. It rolled on its back and showing belly for a good few minutes even though I shooed and begged it to go away. Sighs. And I managed to find out from the internet that showing belly is a sign of trust. Big sighs. What's more, the fella actually followed me home and missed the door by half a meter. Sweat!

For years Bear has been asking if I want a dog for pet, as he often worries about me being lonely. Really, I don't want to get a dog just to get even with some cats. A puppy is to be taken seriously for a good amount of its lifetime.

Anyone with sound solutions of warding off cats? I've tried cat repellants but they're still coming back. Boo hoo hoo...

Lastly, BOO. Enjoy Halloween there.

The Anniversary

2010-10-25T10:16:00.007+09:00

Yesterday 6 years ago was when we had our wedding in Japan. Yup, our second wedding.

We had a wonderful celebration at an exquisite restaurant. It wasn't the fine dining, classy ambience and thoughtful service, but the endearing company of my partner that made the night complete. He still thanks me, appreciates me, finishes up what I wouldn't eat and gladly gives up his share of what I shouldn't have difficulty consuming.

I don't take him for granted, especially after seeing another guy totally engrossed in his papers while his lady kept her gaze on the night garden.

It's ok we didn't make it to any place fascinating. Happiness has never been nearer next to the one you love. :)

Thankful

2010-10-21T08:57:00.019+09:00

To cope with an economic health that's been ailing for the past 20 years, one of the tactics used by Japan's companies is to engage workers on a contract basis. That way, workers can be assessed periodically and conveniently dismissed; without coughing out a remuneration.

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Bear has been getting along incredibly well with colleague M san ( san : Japanese expression for 'Mr/Mrs/Ms' ) since years ago, mostly because our families have been searching for a piece of land to settle in. The peas and carrots share a vein in their work, interest, and dreams. They lunch talking mouthfuls, I know; cos that's how Bear cutely shares the tales from M san during dinner.

By sheer serendipity, our families found our own place with an interval of a month apart! So M san and Bear partnered like never before for their 'my-home-adventure'. Our families split on the venues for look-see and scheduled our weekends for 'homework'. Spied on each other's progress from foundation to rooftop, which brew more joyous jabbers. It felt like 2 homes have bonded, for the largest project in our lifetime. From housing to furnishing to landscaping, we had our forces combined.

Seriously. This kind of affinity hardly comes twice you know, as long as living in an aloof community is concerned. We're blessed with M san's family whom we have so much in common. Much, apart from the fact that M san's service in the company is on a contract basis.

And I know it sounds dramatic, but the thunderbolt had to strike 6 weeks ago. M san's service is complied by mid October with an extension unrequired. He leaves confronting the harsh realities. Minors apart, a tough employment and a substantial houseloan. At worst, M san may have to resort to work at a foreign prefecture and only gets to return home on weekends. Or even for a weekend in the entire month. Or even work abroad.

Words aren't capable of describing it... we really feel for M san.

He left the office officially yesterday bidding goodbye. Still feels proud having served the company, and regrets that he has to be send away packing up all the know-hows. I just know how much he wishes to apply them in the company for good. The saddest words he parted with Bear is, 'If you don't see our cars at the porch anymore, that's when you know our home is relinquished.'

Time to time, the unceasing grouses I couldn't respond to get me. 'Darn that company that retrenched me, it can fold up for good ( the person is compensated ). This place doesn't deserve me with the peanuts it's paying. I hate serving idiots. I work with a bunch of morons. Miserably short holidays, and no leeway. I should BE promoted. Where's my fatter pay, bigger car, dearer bag? Is that all for bonus? Bills, bills, bills, I need a new party dress next month! '

Everybody is heading on something. How large exactly is yours?

These bad times we're living, we may not be leading one of those glamorous lifestyles, still it's a lot to give thanks for... Praying for M san's future endeavours, and plenty of blessings to come his way. His house stays, and he gets to return home after work; everyday - I boldy pray.

Bear must miss him so. He better gets used to lunching alone, or getting along with phony people. I will surely miss Bear's noisy chatter at the dining table too.

Thankful for my lot. Immensely. For good health, and everything else.

But Autumn is beautiful

2010-10-19T09:00:00.005+09:00

Autumn is locking into place, as we wake up with each colder morning. Am dehydrating fast like the crispy leaves, hear me crunch. Ouch.

But Autumn is beautiful.

Feed on : scrumptious apples, creamy pumpkins, and tummies-warming hot pots.

Put on : barret, flattering coat. Leggings in booties and I'm ready to go.

Look on : maturing hues in red, brown and gold, while the chill is still marginally bearable.

Look my way lady, don't be shy.

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Just thankful for the colors that sustain a dangerously prosaic mind, even if it's by strands. Seasons are harder to live with, but too pretty to get on without.

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Gotta go. These hands are screaming for cream.

Thank you for today

2010-10-19T08:43:00.004+09:00

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Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is. Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit. Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. Ephesians 5:15-20

今の時を活かし、大切に。。。

Laugh

2010-10-15T13:54:00.008+09:00

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I dreamt of my youngest brother last night. He was that little boy who would never stop teasing me, tailing my behind, and clinging onto my thigh like one would hug a tree trunk. So cute.

The kid had such a huge bag of funny bones to tickle. Every new move I made he would laugh and quiver like jelly, like this baby in the video.

My 20 year old laughing pie has flown to Australia this morning to lend some military support for 3 weeks.

I'll be missing his voice till he's back. Meanwhile, I shan't forget to laugh like he always wants me to. :) God bless the child and bring him home safe.

We love DIY!!

2010-10-13T10:44:00.007+09:00

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The garden's landscaping is officially completed last Friday, YAY, except for the outrageously good looking guys aren't coming anymore unless their service is required. =P

Anyway, the completion is perfectly timed before a long weekend. So we seized the period to finalise some touchups in DIY style!

First, we borrowed a truck for transporting some weighty hardware! We laughed and joked so much along the bumpy ride, it's definitely my first and most memorable experience on a mini truck. =D

Then, we spent hours partitioning the vegetation plot from the lawn. Love the wavy design of the blocks!

Watering the lawn diligently and applying weight so that they'll get rooted nicely.

Planting Violas around the symbol tree. They are one of my favourite colours.

Acquiring discounted bulbs!

There's very little left to DIY though. Well, at least the rest is up to us now. ;)

Let's see if I can make a bird-waterer with clay, next Spring.

Happy Birthday!

2010-10-06T10:26:00.007+09:00

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Most if not all of my closest friends know how much I adore dad.

I ditched every guy whom dad said 'no'. If dad is a brand, I'll wear him from head to toe. I'm that favourite child though obviously he has another 2, none of us vie for his affection. It's sad how disciplinarians are sometimes misunderstood, dad's stern correction sends vibes of love to my inner soul. His values I fasten dearly to, his approving smile rockets me to the moon. The inspiration of a guy I should spend my life with - Love me, love my dad.

Every atom in me sings 'I'm dad's baby!!'.

We may be miles apart, but this heart always skips back to him. To the sweetest, greatest, bestest man in my life : Happy birthday DAD!

Star, Daddy's girl.

When it looked like the sun wasn’t gonna shine anymore

2010-10-05T10:34:00.007+09:00

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Down poured an autumn shower yesterday, like it had to rain a volume for the entire season. I was happy for the trees planted at home, but then again sad; for rain would mean quite another to others.

Lately, some of our dearest aren't having the best gait of their lives.

こんな大雨で、奥さんはどうやって病院へ行くかな。。。　先生が又寂しい一日過ごすんでしょう。。　雨さえ降らなければな。。。　

As I battled with the raining questions that challenge to drench what's already a sadly-soaked faith, the Sunday message kept reliving in my head.

Remain in Me. Trust Me.

I fell from a trance to a sleep after watching the rain for some time, only to wake up with a startle. Do you have childhood memories of waking up in the middle of a nightmare? You couldn't recall what the dream was but fear was capable of haunting you by transiting dimensions? I rushed for the door as I needed air badly. And there outside the rain has stopped, the air was cool, sky was clearing up, but my heart was that of a helpless childlike state.

Remain in Me. Trust Me. How?

I noticed an aunt passing by, watching me. In order not to confuse her with my perhaps uncollected countenance I pretended to study the maple tree. But she hanged around, so I faced her eventually... 'Let me show you something good' she said and made her point.

If you look carefully, it's a double.

While Christians have this biblical understanding about rainbow, my believing years have sort of got it reformulated. Like a private covenant between God and myself, it's an reassurance, a sign that He understands. And God's control ensues, there's nothing I need to see to or hold on to so badly. I can't anyway.

When it looked like the sun wasn’t gonna shine anymore, God put a rainbow in the clouds.

This is how my faith has got me going on through the years. It's tailored for me. 'Remain in Me, trust Me' my Tailor says.

Rising on our feet

2010-10-01T09:11:00.008+09:00

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Since the landscaping project commenced, curious passerbys have been slowing down their pace to observe the facelift. Which is quite an amusing sight to watch behind the curtains, as Japs are generally reserved people who maintain a poised impression at all times.

I wish there is a back door for me to slip out and join the onlookers. These days, I've been thinning my presence as much as possible so as not to lay any pressure on the workers. Imagine me stealing glances when I offer them drinks. The only time I get to watch openly is when the workers have called it a day. Bad Bear just laughs at me acting mousey.

Greeted the symbol tree this morning, which was the first to rise yesterday! We've picked a Japanese snowbell ( エゴノキ ), also known as Pink chimes. Can't wait to see it bloom in Spring! >.<

Time that I rise on my toes too, after having injured my foot since last Autumn. Half of the foot still feels dislocated at bad times, how comfy is that you think? But I reckon I've rested enough since the fella isn't bruising... And my heart skips at the thought of putting on my ballet shoes again in a fortnight! ;)

Letter to God

2010-09-27T13:57:00.008+09:00

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There she stood in a corner, trying hard to tidy up her emotions, but her tears were not controllable.

Sometimes, happiness is like one's favorite blueberry pie. It's not good enough unless everyone has a portion to partake, and finishes with a thankful smile. What good is it with only me having the entire pie? But sometimes, as much as I desire to share it, it's not happening.

Nobody is at fault. And God, I'm not going to question You cos it's written "My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

But surely Father, You understand our prayers even when we can't find the words to say them, right?

And I don't want to forget to thank You, for our portion, big or small, in good times and bad. Thank you for never forsaking us.

As for "Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn." Romans 12:15, I totally get You. But Lord, if it's not too much to ask, may Your compassion falls upon the couple and brings on a miracle. Surely, nothing is impossible with You. Amen.

Heart in the sky

2010-09-21T10:42:00.005+09:00

I caught a heart-cloud the other day! Yup, the day when I was out without my camera. Grr..

But Bear did capture this one for me in Summer. ;)

外構工事開始 in Autumn

2010-09-16T12:58:00.012+09:00

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It's finally happening! Grin.

First, it's Autumn. We're finally freed from the grilling Summer!

Second, the landscaping and exterior works started yesterday! It had to be delayed this long as since we've missed Spring, we'll have to seize Autumn the second best season for implants.

Before work commenced, I gathered some tall piles of beautiful pebbles strewn across the land, too good to be discarded in my opinion. Sweated hard for them, only to receive a cold shower from Bear who had intention of acquiring new pebbles from stores. Well, I could only agree with Bear after studying the piles later - the pebbles were generally soiled after being stacked upon each other and washing them out would mean another round of hard work.

So the pebbles would have to go ultimately, but I wasn't sorry for too long. It started pouring non-stop 3 hours after excavation yesterday. Precisely what we were hoping as it will soften and nourish the soil, thus enhancing the work. And also, the pebbles were getting themselves a good wash. ;)

I've checked the piles this morning and spreaded them out even. The fellas are now looking polished new. =)

So the pebbles are staying after all. Chuckle.

Tomorrow onwards will be a span of promised sunshine. God is good, all the time. And His goodness always timely. =)

People Get Ready

2010-09-14T09:19:00.008+09:00

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Here in Japan, though we only get to watch American Idol fairly later than the world, believe me that I am deep down grateful. For it's better than not catching the top notch entertainment we look forward to most in the entire year!

And bless my favorite contestant of S9, Crystal Bowersox who performed 'People get ready' yesterday. I was moved to tears even before I saw her cry. How could I in my living years not know this beautiful song? I'm just so glad that I get to hear it first time with Bowersox's assuring delivery.

People get ready, there's a train a comin'
You don't need no baggage, you just get on board
All you need is faith to hear the diesels hummin'
Don't need no ticket, you just thank the Lord

People get ready for the train to Jordan
It's picking up passengers from coast to coast
Faith is the key, open the doors and board 'em
There's hope for all among those loved the most.

There ain't no room for the hopeless sinner
Who would hurt all mankind just to save his own
Have pity on those whose chances grow thinner
For there's no hiding place against the Kingdom's throne

So people get ready, there's a train a comin'
You don't need no baggage, you just get on board
All you need is faith to hear the diesels hummin'
Don't need no ticket, you just thank the Lord

All you need is faith to hear the diesels hummin'. Don't need no ticket, you just thank the Lord.

And thank you for keeping the A.I. S9 result to yourself. ;)

Summer + Sunflowers

2010-09-09T10:46:00.009+09:00

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Summer in Japan has lingered longer than should this year, burning amok and causing quite a depressing harvest. Bear's friend who owns an apple plantation shakes head at the subnormal dip of temperature, for it's not helping the apples glow red and bright.

So, for farmers who decided better to nourish their fields with Sunflowers than to do a regular plot, I'm really happy for them; and for another reason : This Summer is sure bursting with Sunflowers.

For weeks we've been surrounded by beds of them, dominating from field to field in loud yellow. This sweltering season is definitely more bearable with these darlings around. =)

And here's Bear, who've just 'rescued' a trampled sunflower to an upright stance ~ Definitely one of the kindest guys I've known my life... His gentle soul a blessing to have beside.

Praying... that Lord our God of abundant grace and mercy, will always shine His face upon us like the glorious Sunflowers... Amen.

The Lord bless you

and keep you;

the Lord make his face shine upon you

and be gracious to you;

the Lord turn his face toward you

and give you peace.

Numbers 6 : 24-26

Blessed weekend!

向日葵が

2010-09-09T09:05:00.004+09:00

いっぱい。。。 =)

Remembering NDP 2010

2010-09-03T14:52:00.005+09:00

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Efficiency has surely degenerated with years, or have I ever owned one anyway. What could have taken me 2 weeks to make things right at home? Is it age? Or the sloth growing in me. =(

But I've made a big check after having weeded the place clean today! And remembering National Day Parade here for it's part of what the recent trip about. ;)

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Neat. Neat. Neat.

The Red Lions parachutists. This is the only guy in the parade who won't get a dress down for lowering the National flag to the ground.

Fellow commanders of Bro D. I've received one of those mini flags as souvenier. =D

And watching the fireworks, while listening to 'Home' with sis.

The Serenity Prayer

2010-09-01T12:39:00.003+09:00

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

-Reinhold Niebuhr

Because it's easy to forget.

It's HOT!

2010-08-31T12:27:00.004+09:00

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Imagine the bees working under the hot sun.

Could it be the heat? It's been announced that a wild deer is wandering within the neighbourhood!

It's Sun!

2010-08-16T02:42:00.009+09:00

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Guess what. 13th August was an exceptionally good day, I couldn't stop smiling.

My noisy siblings had time for me. I've acquired several steal-deals with shopping. Downed some most delicious eats at my favourite restaurants, and...

I caught Stephanie Sun in person, live! Stephanie who? Sun, that most sucessful Singaporean artiste to date!

This is home, truly. Even Stephanie could be seen having local nasi! ( 'rice' in Malay ) Our eyes met. And the closest we've got was like a meter away!

Her frame is smaller than I would have guessed. She blended into the foodcourt like any other Singaporean girl. I was tempted to have a picture with her, oh but; let her eat. Guess any other who have stayed abroad would let her have her plate in peace.

Good luck Sun. Shine!

NDP afterthoughts

2010-08-10T23:27:00.011+09:00

Lil Bro D turned 20 yesterday, on Singapore's 45th National Day. =)

Everyone at home would talk about his 1 yo birthday episode : We were watching the national day parade on tv and there he panicked in his baby wheelers and cried, for he mistook the parade commander on screen 'screaming' at him. 19 years later, I'm so proud of the baby who shed the wheelers and commanded one of the military tanks at the parade square, and salute the President of Singapore.

Time flies.

Sis and I chased the tanks down the streets, with heavy equipment, in the hot sun, thru all that ardent crowd. She with her bad foot and me with an ebbing stamina ran so hard anyway until her poor feet suffered cuts. But it's been ages since we've done something together - so focused and one-minded; like how we used to make giant burgers with pillows. We were bolder monsters then.

Time doesn't take affections away.

I've never liked the hair-raising national day songs during school days, we sang because the teachers wanted us to. Who knows the songs have turned heart-gripping with years, especially since I've moved away. Near the parade square where Kit Chan sang 'Home', sis and I were listening as we sat side by side like little children... As memories flooded back tears just filled my eyes. I've finally heard the national day songs, with my heart for the first time.

Things get knowing with time.

This is home truly, where my heart will always be. And I'm so glad I'm back.

And I'll be proud of my heritage a lifetime. Majulah Singapura.

The peaches are travelling

2010-08-06T09:08:00.013+09:00

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These days may be roasting at 35 degrees celcius or so, but the body is cleverly adjusting! =D In fact, we're enjoying Summer's treats like gelatos and delicious fruits.

Summer would mean that fridgey will smell like mouth-watering white peaches ( 白桃 ). Japan's white peaches are nothing I've come across in my earlier living years.

First, the trees are really pretty in Spring.

Then, the fruit looks sexy and tastes wicked good in Summer!

I love sinking teeth into the tenderly soft flesh that sends a honeyed waterfall down my cheeks and throat. But it's a little blue everytime having them - I so hope to bring peaches home for dad someday! He'll love em.

Guess what? The peaches A.R.E. going home this year. I'm travelling in 2 days!! Yay!!

And I get to use Piggy's handmade pouch this trip, how timely! ;)

As for Bear, he'll be one baking cookie in Japan. =P Ohh he'll be fine, summer nights are cool!

He gets all these to himself at the comfort of home. ;P Plus more peaches from fridgey!
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So see you from Singapore!

Handmade by Piggy

2010-08-04T09:57:00.016+09:00

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I ought to have blogged this way back earlier, but the busyness and heat got the better of me. (~~)

Know Piggy - She cooks, bakes, travels, snaps, snacks, sews, crochets, and the list rolls on. Really, is there anything I know she's not good at! I adore her motivation, that constant strive on perfection, and humility to share. Besides being blessed with a private consultant on all things kitchen and earthly, I'm thankful for her listening and encouraging presence, always just a mail away. =)

And a mail from Piggy came weeks ago. Look what she's made me with her creative hands!

Coasters, with very neat stitches.

Pouch good for travelling. I love the details and materials used!

And us. With pink cheeks!

Yup, little do most know, while ' Bear ' is hubby-honey, I'm his ' Bunny '. It's a zoo at home.

Thank you Piggy for the special gifts, they're just precious! We'll be up on the Christmas tree this year! ;)

Cute bites

2010-08-03T09:50:00.008+09:00

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I miss Singapore's local treat, all the time.

I remember longing for local grub badly, especially the earlier years in Japan. When I finally got sick of Japan's eats, I began seeking solace in McDonald's. Simply put, it tastes exactly what I had in Singapore. McDonald's turns out passable for a comfort food, the fast way.

The only difference? Here, Mcdonald's is read 'mar-ku-do-na-ru-do', or 'mar-ku' in short.

Anyway, when the replica of my ~~soulmate~~ soul-food showed up, I snagged it fast by complying the standard meal + large fries and drink purchase. Mc's sure knows how to sell.

Check out their actual size. >.<

I am one in the land of world-known exquisite gastronomy. How bizarre.

Gluttony

2010-07-29T12:23:00.015+09:00

It happens.

Besides, S's recent visit helped reason the sweet binge - summer is a bad time. Flowers are done for, heat; there is. So get the tickets to sweets.

Grin... But grins didn't last when S arrived and started complaining about her earlier stay in boring Saitama.

Err... welcome to Matsumoto.

We went to the 'national treasure' Matsumoto castle, and the other 'must-see' landscapes. But of course, nothing here impressed typical Singaporean S.

Matsumoto couldn't have measured up to Singapore even a century later like S summed it - the environment looks desperately behind. There's nothing to see. People are cold. Shopping is atrocious, stuffs are expensive so it explains why she's not paying.

The only good would have to be food. Oh yes, Singaporeans looooove food.

Anything else appealing must be Bear. For S made eyes at him under my nose so frequent I had to find my jaw many times.

I don't know but I was like amused, bemused. And I mused... Was it the summer heat? (@@) But I gotta thank S for helping me remember the charm in Bear.. Seeing each other everyday makes one oblivious of lines and nature that fine.

' Blah blah blah... I can't believe why you're living here.'

Ok. Nobody believes that I didn't get married in order to live here.

Hey Bear, got that? Nobody like S would marry you if it means staying here. Heh!

Nevertheless, I totally get S you know, in my very Singaporean instincts. But the Matsumoto-nic facts aren't making me trade my greater blessings.

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So, it's HERE I'm living. Laid back, simple, and I breed a safe degree of gluttony. It's alright, no Singaporean is watching. =P

Homegrown

2010-07-23T10:05:00.010+09:00

What? What Hydrangeas? Mine have crashed and burnt since the first day of Summer.

How can Jap's summer be so hot?!?! Some regions were even having 39.4 degrees celcius yesterday!

Given the oven-like climate, it's hard sitting still even for lunch. Only by night when the breeze is cool and inviting, I'm finally acting human. There's a regimen of sitting by the window before bed, to watch the stars and ease the nerves before bed else I couldn't have slept after all that day of fidgets.

And do my careless gaze across the room like the other night, and I caught Rowndy, whom I've forgotten to blog about out of busyness, showing signs of withering. It has fully bloomed since 3rd May, 23 blooms in total, and lasted this long. =)

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Yup, Rowndy is a darling to have, my homegrown pride whenever friends shower praise over it ( well, those friends who understand orchids ). I just hope that it'll be kept healthy always...

While Rowndy is soon retiring to a dormant state again, look what I'm starting to ganer to the table.

' Very very sweet tomatoes. Wait a minuite, are they.... '

' Yes sir, they are our very homegrown. '

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A better friend

Where are you?

Happy 2012

Home for Christmas

How many days...

Going home

At 4 months

The Anniversary

Mothers

Grin

10 days

For all we know

百日祝い

Grab your covers

BCG

At 3 months

Mirror mirror on the wall

Watching

Baby Dedication 28th August 2011

Cheers!

And the challenges continue...

At 2 months

In a heartbeat

Box of chocolates

満月的宝宝

A new addition

Blooming this June

At 37 weeks

Sprint

A name

For June

Small

Beautiful May

At 34 weeks

Blooming this year

My sweetest guys

May 2011

Make it count

7

At 31 weeks

April free and easy

Getting up

It's here...

Peace

3月11日の大地震

The cutest company

Something's gotta give

At 21 weeks

Whenever the season

Happy Valentine's Day

Diamond dust

Happy

Do the hop!

Getting thru by grace

At 17 weeks

Hey!

First wager of the year!

Year of Rabbit

Cheers to 2011

Happy New Year, and thank you

Christmas 2010

Handmade by Helena

Merry Christmas!!

Julie & Julia

Count your blessings instead of sheep

First snow

Phillipians 4

A year! At Shawood.

When is snow falling?

日光 Nikko

In memory of 森本先生

森本先生

Back from the Australian desert

Time that I outgrow it

Boo

The Anniversary

Thankful

But Autumn is beautiful

Thank you for today

日光　Nikko